sparse bits of blogging.
hope px enjoyed her spring break. (boing boing boing) :p
thanks |fade| u made me blush. :p

duodenum attacked.
by crème brulée.
isn't it a tragedy? lactose-intolerant people (like me) can't enjoy heavenly french desserts like burnt cream (rich, solid, yummy cream with a layer of blow-torched sugar on top) without that feeling of impending doom. sigh. imagine that: crème brulée with a scoop of vanilla ice-cream and strawberries on top!! *wistful* ...right now i'm waiting for all hell to break loose. trying to ignore that nagging feeling of undigested lactose having a party deep in my gut.. hmph. i'll try crème caramel next year.

despite that, i had a very enjoyable lunch with jeremy. yum. :p
time to get that exercise regime going.
haven't talked to jeremy in ages. almost forgot how crappy i can be, and how crappy i was. haha.. oops.

end of march. april. exams. hmph. don't like. blah blah blah... study.

ha-ha
i still don't believe there are people who want to be tai-tais. isn't it terribly boring and dUh. haha. really. can't imagine the tai-tai thing. and i still laugh when people come and tell me they want to marry some rich geezer "when they grow up" and be tai-tais. i refuse to be a tai-tai so there.

anyway this is rather cute.

internal bleeding. on three fingers of my right hand.

cos yours truly was trying to do glissando on the piano. and yours truly hasn't touched the piano for months and months. ah well. but i didn't do too badly i think. at least i managed to get most of the piece back after an hour of hammering at the piano. sigh. might as well start the account from the beginning.. well... my (ex) piano teacher called me out of the blue one day and asked me to go play ('showcase' she said) at the music school (Cristofori at Beauty World)... she wanted me to play the stuff i used to play. three years ago. more than. hmmm. so i had 5 days. played a bit here and there at home on 2 occasions during the said 5 days. so i went to meet my doom yesterday afternoon. initially i could only play the first page of the evil piece. (prelude pour le piano by debussy. contains 5 glissandos.) very slowly. that was with the teacher watching. then after that i was sent to reflect on my actions in the next room while she conducted lessons. it was more relaxing when there's no one watching. and even though i know the lousy walls meant that people could hear most of what i was playing, i could still focus my mind on the music and practise. which was rather surprising. haha. considering i'm such a scaredy cat. and the most surprising thing was that i found i didn't have to learn the piece from scratch. i just relaxed and heck and tried to play the thing through. and it didn't turn out too badly. of course there were 300 wrong notes. but the thing was there. so after playing it through once or twice i was almost back in shape. haha. madness. so fun. well anyway, i had to go the piano showroom to embarrass myself in front of all the staff and parents and whoever there. tried very hard to ignore them haha. all in all it didn't turn out too bad. so i'm happy. and will not whine too much about the bleeding fingers. yep. lala. i suffer from severe stage fright. doesn't matter whether there's any stage. well. now you know. ^_^

after the ABRSM diploma awards ceremony and this...thingy, i'm kind of inspired to resume piano practice again, no matter that i'm not even having lessons now. tralala.

feel pleased with myself, for some reason. hmmm.. me and me double life. oops.

*ponders*

quiet.

piggy

hmm... my stomach has quite a lot of work to do now, cos i just ate at Marché. sigh, i feel really fat now. should exercise. i love oxtail stew. wheee... :p haha. delirious with carbo/fat overload. lalalala... went to sunny bookshop after dinner. we were the last customers before they closed at 8pm. (so early) aunt sponsored books. one each. me went looking for a Hermit in Paris cos i saw it there once but couldn't find it, so in the end got One Hundred Years of Solitude. hee. yay.

me went for Secret Garden concert yesterday!!!!!! yum. it was beautiful. *swoons* well, basically my first concert of this type. yup... i dunno how to describe it properly. won't do it justice. hmmm. it was a nice experience. yup. feels like i've rediscovered my sense of wonder. things are beautiful and wonderous once again. .......
thanks ender.

hmmm shall daydream some more.

haircut

well, it's actually more like hair-trim. but now i feel lighter and neater. wheee....

another tiring day (realised that every day has been "tiring" lately. getting boring and unoriginal)... well we had this xtra lecture thingy in the afternoon today. 2 guys from funky places came to talk about stem cells and...transcription factors.. heh. the transcription one is this chinese guy from berkeley...he speaks extremely nice english. :p and the stem cell guy comes from cardiff. a sir martin evans. wow. haha. he sounds super super smart...just that he speaks extremely slowly and everyone got bored after a while. heh. but it was all very interesting. lala. yup. then after that lab started late cos many people went for the lecture (including the teachers)... sigh. lab was so irritating. went a bit blind trying to count (budding) yeast cells under the microscope. long long lab session.

the microscopes and spectrophotometers conspired against us.

ok, so lab ended really late and i was late for french as a consequence. hmmm was thinking time got frame-shifted today. heh. ... french was slack and crappy as usual. we were supposed to give presentations on scandalous newspaper articles today but we managed to postpone the thing till next week. sigh. realised that french newspapers sensationalise a lot. hmmm. murders and evictions and demonstrations. interesting.

and i got back and went to have my hair cut and came home bathe ate dinner and here i am. yup.

zzZzZzZzZZZZZzz....

rainy rainy

bleep

hmmm...was thinking of going running or something today. (thinking about it is a good start). too bad the weather wants me to be lazy and fat. hmmm. am glad that my stomach gave up being horrible today. it was upset yesterday, probably due to the jelly-peach-tower-kaya-toast-watermelon-juice-curried-rice (in order of consumption) power cocktail i had over the past 2 days. heh. lala. stomach exercise. wheee... sigh. shall not give in to temptation and torture my stomach anymore this month..

oh happy day....

hmm i'm home. finally. it's quite late. hmmm i suppose i'm quite horrible to be going home so late all the time. well...but i think it's just because this week is more crazy. yup. i don't know. i think i should sleep soon; my head has been feeling weird all day. hmph.

PhilYouth concert was ok. the first session was rather scary cos people were nervous i think. hmm. then many things were on the verge of breaking down. ok, it's not that bad, but it was unnerving. hm. the second session was better, though there was still a bit of rushing going on. heh. i sight-read almost 3/4 of the pieces, but i guess i didn't do too badly. hmm. and the solo (which was entrusted to me 2 hours before the concert) didn't turn out too un-manly. haha. anyway it was a familiar piece, being american graPHity V. well. lalala. PhilYouth turns 2 on 17 March! so interesting. after the concert there was food and stuff. and i ate jelly. yay. the sky was super clear in the evening too. could see many stars. and a big weird shiny thing that looks suspiciously like the ISS. hmmm. so hard to believe that the ISS is so visible from the ground... haha.

talk about sleeping. sigh.

to px: hope you got nice presents! :p it's in april right? if i didn't remember wrongly.. have fun! heh.

choices. i'm falling asleep but i still have things to do/make. hmmm.
i need exercise. but now i need sleep.

tiring week.
performance with NTU band at CHIJMES yesterday. chandeliers look pretty. hmm.
another performance in a few hours. this time at Lasalle-SIA auditorium. with the PhilYouth. hmmm.

i'm tired and my head's falling off and my contacts fell out and i fell off the bed and i don't want to do anything except sleep and sleep and sleep and my mother keeps telling my exams are coming and school fees are expensive as if i don't know that and i just want to sleep i haven't been dreaming or i can't remember sigh

zZzzzz nite.

to px: why you leave scandalous commments and make so many people make fun of me happy anniversary to you girl

to jh: speak for yourself.

to lynette: laugh some more i poke u during lecture

to sam: there is nothing weird going on; it's ok to hallucinate every now and then.

to zilthe: my scrollbars are not invisible. neither are they all over the place, nor numerous. and you're scary.

sigh... when i figure out how to destroy a tagboard i'll put one up..

bad nose day today and i think i'm getting a sore throat

been raining the entire day today. how nice. :p haven't had rainy weather in weeks. yup. but too bad i had to go to school, so couldn't sleep the day away. sigh. feel really lazy. heh.

was quite hilarious trying to do homework at the benches behind the tutorial rooms in NIE.... the rain kept coming in, and by the time i'm done the paper was soft and damp and not crisp at all. haha. so horrible. and the dampness made 2B feel like HB... haha. so hard to write. hmmm. ... and tutorials ended half an hour early today! felt like a waste of time. haha. so me and lynette went to JP to pig out, as is usual with us. ate crystal jade xiao long bao! haha. and lynette was showing off her talent.....for drinking vinegar. hahaha. you go girl. oops.

hmm... had french lesson today. it's ok, i guess. we're going to have a test on wednesday. hmm wonder how i'll do for it. what if i discover i've forgotten most of my french? (it's very possible, cos i haven't been using french for a couple of years) sigh. so scary. shall try to remember my tenses. hmph.

march. a month of important dates. events. the end of the financial year. a quarter of the year. *ponders*

new this week: cousin mellie makes her debut on my blog! haha

alright. i'm being lame.
have nothing much to say today. cos i haven't thought much. (what's new) ...

... people born today are numerologically similar to me.
(if they're born in the same yr as me, that is)

lala.

it's creative season again. shall engage in all sorts of silly craftwork and make useless things. and waste time. and entertain myself. lalalala.

'nuff crap.

~eulogy for a little yellow beetlebug~

i know not how you came to be in my life
only that i found you one morning as i
looked down at my shoes, trying to will the day
away, knowing as i always do
that it is here to stay

why you sought refuge in me
i cannot explain
why you chose to show me your
weakness and pain and
dance of death

you told me your story
that short day we were together
then you left
you couldn't wait, not even for
moonrise;
another life is just
a wingbeat away

and thus you left
leaving no trace of your brief
existence
but your footprints mirred in time

hmm aerospace was nice. i got terribly sunburnt. started peeling last night. now i'm the deadskinmonster. sigh. i'll go for it again in 2006. ha. :) refuse to give a rundown of wat nice things i saw at the exhibition on sunday. everything's nice. hmmm i suppose i should lament the fact that i missed blogging on the 29th of feb. but what's over is over. irrevocable. sigh.

went for bbq yesterday. t'was a not-so-quiet 9-girl affair. heh. quite fun. haven't gone mad (chalet-mad) in a long time. sang songs and took mad pictures and laughed a lot. madness, on the whole. decided to stay over. made my mother mad. slept a bit. got out at ard 10 am. went macs for bfast. then went home. dropped bits of skin all the way home. pity the 2 trains i took. and the ppl who freaked out after looking at me. haha. whee.

afidah makes nice stingray sambal. yum.

hmm...musings.
seems like my mental faculties have degraded steadily since those JC days.. i can't focus on anything properly. and i'm beginning to suspect my depth of thought. realised that ever since i got out of JC i haven't been thinking about anything complex or trying to reason out any mind-boggling hypotheses. either that or i haven't the time to. my brain needs exercise. and i think i'm not smart enough. i fear i'm becoming a shallow person, an entity so evolutionally primitive that it wouldn't be able to tolerate itself (if it were conscious). hm. and after a bit of thinking, i realise ender's been using less big words with me in our conversations nowadays (and conversations nowadays are definitely not as funky as those before). that's enough to make me very sad. and worried. ah well. have been doing a lot of useless trivial nonsensical shallow inconsequential thinking. hmm. reflections.

perhaps i should speak english properly. it'll be a waste of me if i don't.

*ponders*