things.

hello.
tired me. walked a lot today. kilometres i think. walk walk walk. think i need to exercise more... me all atrophied. sigh. exercise exercise. turn fat into muscle. if it's possible in the first place. blah. need sun too. after sitting at home for 3 weeks i think i'm suffering from vitamin D deficiency. which leads to malabsorption of calcium which leads to osteoporosis. hahahaha...

anyway, i had fun at Melody's party... ate nice food, played with kids.. haha.. oh i played a few games of bridge as well. hmm must say girls tend to be rather 'conservative' when playing bridge. or is it because i've played with crazy people before.. i thought the bridge today was positively tame. hahaha... blarh.

PX..
i need a saxophone, because i think it's about time i got one. after playing for so many years. and i do plan to continue playing. i've been troubling people to borrow saxes for me from the schools they teach, and they have to transport it for me... though they have cars it's not very nice to keep bothering them.. and it's not guaranteed that i'll have an instrument to use for every rehearsal.. yar. in addition to that, there's WMC this year. in less than 3 months' time. money has become very important, for now. that's why i need a job. now. heh. things for me to worry about.

Zéra..
no you didn't trigger the nostalgia attack... i was already thinking about it earlier in the day... then it happened that you were concerned with the same subject as well.. heh. so it's ok... don't need to apologize. yup.
as for DESTINY, i happen to like Athrun a lot. since SEED itself. think Athrun is like my favourite character or something. i'd want him to be together with Cagalli in the end. heh. oh and i find Stellar intriguing. Shin-Stellar. ponders. whee.. don't stereotype me! hahahaha.... nah. it's ok. i suppose many people like Kira. and Lacus too. i think they're ok.. =) and i don't think you're weird. heh. see i like Athrun too! bleh.

money money... sigh.

catch of the day

dah.

jh watches Queer Eye =)

new links posted:
AEF 2004
AEF :: REF

well... so i'm now officially on holiday. erm. right. have to find (productive) things to do. sigh. seems like after i finish worrying about something it's time to start worrying about something else. neverending list of things to worry about. what on earth is wrong with me. but. problems are problems. and i worry until i can get them solved. shrug. *frustration*

perhaps what i post is not thought-provoking enough. hmm. so the problem lies with me. and thus there isn't really any reason for me to wonder why he doesn't comment other than to leave remarks of a certain nature, while leaving 'high-IQ' comments elsewhere (i shall not mention any names). [i know perfectly well i have to face the consequences of saying this. but what the heck. let me be a jealous, small-minded bitch for once] so. attitude-behaviour-psychology. ok. wonders which one i should work on first. brain transplant. sigh even as i'm typing this i worry about what will happen because of this post. perhaps i'll come to regret ever posting this. forever and ever. shall see. risk. whatever. eloquence, to my aid!

in other news, i was attacked by a bout of nostalgia yesterday. well. just want to say: not good to be attacked by bout of nostalgia when trying to studying for exam. sigh... i ended up being rather distracted, poking my nose here and there instead of burying it firmly in my notes... sigh. well anyway... the bout of nostalgia led to certain discoveries that led to a bout of excitement (which i still feel now despite certain dampening events that took place just now).. haha. well. it's all because of AEF (Allons en France). and the possibility of REF (Revenons en France). i hope it happens. *crosses fingers and toes* i have no idea why i kind of put AEF out of my mind or at the back of my mind for the past 9 months or so. i mean, i do remember it once in a while, but it was just like recalling something of the past. now... sigh shall attribute things to the sudden bout of nostalgia. turns out that i miss many things. and perhaps back then i should have been more gregarious and spontaneous and on and made more friends as a results. or stronger acquaintances, at any rate. hmmm.... but it's already history. no way of returning to the past. i hope it's not too late for me to (re)open some doors, though. yup. it's weird. it'a almost like i just realised how much this means to me. (lots) and how amazing it really is. (very very amazing) lol. [<-- the first time i use lol] and what the h*** on their website NYP 'honours' their student who made it to AEF in 2003?! why NTU never honour me one. hmph. haha i seriously doubt people in NTU even know i went for the thing, even though my name might be down in the records of the embassy. not to mention the ministry of foreign affairs in france. mwahahaha... hmmm... and it's interesting how many of my fellow 'lauréats' end up studying things like french philology, international relations(++), and stuff like that. amazing. what am i doing?! haha... nvm. *revels in solitary nostalgia*

also: it's really interesting to chat using bits of 3 languages at the same time... (i.e. french, english, japanese) whee... speaking of chat... i want to expand my MSN contact list. hmph. think all those people who've appeared 'offline' on my ICQ list for the past year or so ran over to MSN... d'oh.

hope i have things to blog regularly... in the meantime, i need to look for a job. and a saxophone. and freedom. liberté. shrug.
and give me back my boyfriend.

i am my boyfriend's best friend

and he's such a scatterbrain, goodness.
i thought i was the one always messed up about the days of the week and stuff, but he's WORSE! sigh.. think he needs a secretary... maybe an inflatable one... or perhaps a remembrall.. if he tied knots in his hanky (he doesn't use hankies, thankfully) he'd forget what the knots were supposed to remind him of... =) so cute right? blearh.
sigh should make him tell me every single thing he's doing and every single thing he's going to do, so i can remind him. tsk tsk.

in case you're wondering about the title, don't. =)

bleh.

jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.
jh is cute.

so there.

under the window sill

something interesting before i launch into the day's tirade...
~bristle~

it would be quite pointless if all i'll experience in life is just slogging and bill-paying and stuff like that. (while fully knowing that when i live out my time here it'll all amount to nothing anyway) money is a necessity, but money is not the meaning of life. neither is it a reason to live. if all i'm going to live for is to make money then i hope i die soon. unfortunately it is essential to make money in order to survive. but i hope i'll never have to waste my days slaving away so that i can pay the next instalment of my house, car, goldfish. whatever. yet. i want to see more of the world i'm standing on. i want to experience the lifestyles of a hundred cultures. (or something) sigh.. hope i can balance out the equations in my life and never be tied down because of money. amusement. i'll make a really bad business person. er. i'm Not a business person.. making money is just not a priority for me. bleah. getting by would be good enough.

why am i saying this...
oh yes. i'm looking for reasons to live. and apparently making money is not one of them. zzz.

need to learn to see the beauty of things again. need to find beautiful things in my life. think i've forgotten how to... right now the most beautiful things in my life are: jh, Gundam SEED DESTINY and its soundtracks, the Am to G chord progression, and the promise of freedom.

think i'm going crazy.
sitting under the window (sill) in my room.
staring at my notes, hoping the words will stick in my head...

post-trauma.

il pleut

i suppose i'm allowed to day-dream... i've just 'discovered' another place i must visit in my lifetime... when i'm free i'll make a list of places i want to visit. along with stuff about these places... that might be something good to do, to keep me from becoming too bored. blarh. anyway, here's where i want to visit. it seems like an interesting place, and i quite like its geographical location. and it sounds like a nice honeymoony sort of place. (just an observation)

come to think of it, i kinda missed blogging. weird.
and i kinda like azureus today, it's behaving in an appalling manner. shrug.
and. i cannot understand why i always end up going through the harry potter series during exam periods. madness. somebody stop me. hmm but i'm already at the last book of the series, so i think i'll be ok... just hide them books from me when the next exam comes. blarh.

it's rather depressing that my hearing's bad. not in the sense that i'm hearing-impaired, but in that my brain can't seem to focus on whatever it is that i want to hear. i have distracted hearing. isn't that great. which means it takes me ages to get layers out of music pieces. shall not even mention transcription. sigh.

ah well.
i should be getting back to my enzymes and their evil activities.

ok, now i know the source of my confusion

a time-consuming problem...

addled brains

i'm back.

see you next week.