Thursday, September 29, 2005

daze -- i ramble

today
i went walking around on my own.

i took the train to town, but without a specific destination in mind. on the train i tried to read a book, but i was distracted by the need to decide on a destination of disembarkation. i decided to alight at orchard, because i know there's a post office at taka and i can pay my bill there. but somehow i was in such a daze that i missed the stop. so i alighted at somerset. and i walked back to taka and up to the post office. i was not in any particular hurry anyway. i decided i had plenty of time before i should appear at the office at HAS, since it was nearing lunchtime, and perhaps they'll all be out for lunch anyway. so i crossed the road from taka and went to heeren. went up to the top floors thinking that i should get a new hairclip, but i didn't find any that i liked. the crepe shop is gone. went back down, walked out of the building, then suddenly decided i should go HMV to see if they have the dvd i want. so i did an about-turn and went back into the building. well they didn't have what i want anyway. i walked back down towards somerset and then PS. by then it was so hot i decided i wouldn't make it to HAS before i became a smelly mess so i took a bus for the remainder of the journey to city hall. bus 16. alighted at raffles hotel and walked down beach road towards HAS. did what i went there to do and walked back towards city hall. went underground. the crepe shop is gone. looked at some slippers. walked all the way without seeing anything else and almost missed the turn to go to the esplanade. well. the tunnel has some new and interesting installations. went up to the concourse level, looked around a bit, regretted not bringing the camera out, because the sky was a most perculiar colour. unreal. and nice. walked through the mall. decided i like the flower shop there. went out to the bus stop. took 75. destination holland v. never took 75 before. it has an interesting route. i had no idea that raffles place was so near outram was so near tiong bahru was so near great world city was so near tanglin was so near holland v. well perhaps i did. just that i've never taken this route before. reached holland v when it started to drizzle. decided i like the flower shop there. went to bead shop bought some stuff. after bead shop went burger king to have lunch and read book. after that crossed the overhead bridge and took 165 back to ang mo kio. i had plenty of time. went to the craft shop at amk central and bought some wire. i had plenty of time. went to the bus stop where i was to take my next bus. decided it was too early to take the bus. so i sat there to read. for about half an hour. then i took the bus. surprisingly the bus was quite fast today and i reached early. i had plenty of time. so i sat on a bench somewhere near the river and continued reading my book. from where i sat i couldn't see the rubbish in the water. i read for about an hour, before i got up and crossed the road and walked to the block of flats and took the lift up to the 9th storey to give tuition. after tuition his dad gave me a ride out to the bus stop. it was the first time; he happened to be going out. i missed my bus. so i took another bus back. went to 7-11 to buy bread before going home.

enough.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

imperfect cadence

why is my blog so ugly.
i hate it.
why are the blogskins out there so ugly.
why don't i have time to make a nice blogskin.
argh.
@#$%&

Monday, September 26, 2005

mew mew

Alonso is the youngest F1 champion. cool~ =) but my Kimi is more 帅. lala~

lynette said i look like an anime loanshark. because of my hair, and the single dangly earring. ah well. i've never seen an anime loanshark before, so i'll take her word for it.

after giving tuition for a bit more than a month, i think i've become a veteran. and i realise i've forgotten how many things i'd studied when i was in primary six. i have almost no recollection of what i studied back then. weird. they have really difficult science stuff! and they added things like biotechnology and genetic engineering into the syllabus. eek. so difficult. hmm. and it's kind of hard for me to make any difference when the PSLE is so near. hmmmm. all i can do is revision, and correct any misconceptions that surface during these revision sessions. hope it makes some difference. =)

zzZ...

Sunday, September 25, 2005

whee-ze

i got a gig bag! whee. hahaha... i've been waiting for the day man.. =) neh, i've been procrastinating. but now i've got one! no more lugging heavy cases all over the country! *grinz* now for a -laogong- of my own to put in the bag. haha. long wait. sigh. jx's investments.

it's PX's birthday today! whee! Happy Birthday Pea! you're old! haha. *dumps a load of confetti and clichéd birthday wishes on the Pea* wheeee! love you lots! haha...

Monday, September 19, 2005

passes


whee. but so few. slowly collect. maybe one day it'll reach the floor. lala.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

MAF


the annual mid-autumn festival celebrations at HC... doing mad things... meeting and chatting with people i haven't seen in ages. haha. it's quite interesting... long time no see... and then we realise it's been 5 or 6 or 8 years since we'd known each other. getting old. hmm. physically the school hasn't changed much... the mass-singing and mass-dancing is still as mad as ever. hmm but there seemed to be more of the "younger" people than the older ones. and i'm olddddd. ah well. annual ritual. =)

Saturday, September 10, 2005

past

-the tears of parting are shed alone-

《无题》 李商隐
相见时难别亦难,东风无力百花残。
春蚕到死丝方尽,蜡炬成灰泪始干。
晓镜但愁云鬓改,夜吟应觉月光寒。
蓬山此去无多路,青鸟殷勤为探看。

everyone at home is asleep.
it's quiet, except for my @#$% laptop fan.
lala~

is there a limit to what people can tolerate? perhaps. but i suppose this limit is self-imposed. it can stretch on and on if we want it to, i guess. no idea. it's lucky i don't have high blood pressure. and i'm used to being treated like nothing. so i guess i'll be fine. [how unfortunate] haha. crap.

term break.
[what?]

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

frustration

how do you save someone who says, "save me," but then insists on dying?

what can you do, when someone says to you, "help me, cheer me up," but insists on being depressed despite you doing as he asked?

when will people stop doing this to me?

Monday, September 05, 2005

chlorpheniramine

i have the feeling that some idea, some thought, is waiting to burst from my mind. i have the feeling that i'm going to break into song any moment, just that i have no idea what song it will be. yet. a vast emptiness. an unbearable loneliness. it is so easy to live a simple carefree life and actually be happy with it. [is it not?] why do i burden myself with such strange notions?

momentary sanity.

it's funny how a single encounter, a discrete occurence in the fabric of space-time, can cause life to seem so full of opportunity, possibility, again. i've forgotten how that had felt. if a brief 2 hours can arouse such sentiment, what more days and days and years? but we get bored, don't we. even the amount of variety a single person can generate is sometimes not enough. yet eventually we realise: how many people can each of us really know in our lifetimes? not many. not many at all. [3 or 4 might be a good bet] shrug. i paint depressing pictures, eh? aww.

in any case, this is dedicated to you, though i don't even know whether you read this. ah well. [this afternoon i remembered something suddenly, and i went in search of 2 lions. i'm sure they're in the house somewhere, but up till now i haven't managed to locate them yet. sigh.]

the wonders of antihistamine.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

nothing like an invigorating conversation

yes.

i'm so tired now. i wonder why. i hardly did anything today... except watch AI [finally] and i walked around a bit in town.. well. haven't been in town at night for a while. shrug. had fun talking about scary things with Someone... bleh. nothing like an invigorating conversation... to exercise the brain.

came home, saw ~2 Chinese girls downstairs... i knew they were Chinese from the way the were speaking.. there were about 2 of them. one was sitting on the ground, the other was like lying down i think.. not very sure of that cos i didn't really take a good look or anything. but from the tone of speech i guess they were drunk. ah well. wonder if they're still downstairs. weirdness.

bedtime.

Friday, September 02, 2005

how interesting..

You scored as Existentialist. Existentialism emphasizes human capability. There is no greater power interfering with life and thus it is up to us to make things happen. Sometimes considered a negative and depressing world view, your optimism towards human accomplishment is immense. Mankind is condemned to be free and must accept the responsibility.

Existentialist

75%

Materialist

75%

Cultural Creative

69%

Modernist

63%

Postmodernist

63%

Fundamentalist

44%

Idealist

44%

Romanticist

38%

What is Your World View? (updated)
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cold
You are a cold soul inside. You used to be happy
once, but someone took that away from you. You
feel regret and hatred, and have a hard time
trusting or committing to someone. The only
comfort you find is alone in your dark room or
outside, alone with nature. you have hardly
ever been happy, and rarely have you been shown
affection.


Who are you inside?
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yes i know the alignment sucks.. but i can't be bothered with it. bleah.
hmmm and the disturbing thing is... here.