*hmmm*

sniff

unreal

last night, i dreamt of _ for the first time ever.
it was not an unpleasant dream, just... extremely unusual.
mad dream
movie set
me running into a river
_ chasing after me
i was crying and crying for some reason
some old-fashioned looking room
old wooden wardrobe
bed
side by side on the bed
naked
talking
listening
for a few days

~

all in all a really weird dream
the funny thing was, i remembered very clearly that i spoke multiple languages in the dream. with _. but as i don't know enough of the languages to begin with i couldn't make out what i was saying in the dream. i could only understand what i was saying when i spoke english in the dream. when it was the other language it was like some muffled mumbling, even though i was aware in the dream that i spoke in that particular language. something like that. i hope i'm making sense. hm.

what will i dream of tonight?

vivante

exams are over.
i'm busy with rehearsals and concert stuff.
michel houellebecq writes nice depressing books.
i missed reading depressing books.
if i hadn't seen the article about michel houellebecq in newsweek i wouldn't have become interested in him and his books.
i like the feel of straight long hair.
for a few hours yesterday my hair was beautiful.
i slept 12 hours last night.
i had my first mascara experience yesterday.
double extension mascara thingy is scary.
i love nice-sounding chords.
i should learn harmony properly.
developmental biology is interesting.
perfect in black is a nice shop.
recent events made me lose interest in getting braids.
sadness, as braids were supposed to play an important role in my creative life.
rrrright.
lemon shiver from nydc is a lovely drink.
bus 29 goes past changi prison.
i will sleep now, after being awake for the last 12 hours [only].
good night.

Jax is Hainanese.

Yes I am. And I wonder why there aren't Hainanese songs at KBox. Hahaha...
Zzz.

..consolation..

*smile*

quoi de neuf?

Hello.
Been busy with exams. Trying to mug and trying not to fail [not sure if I'm going to succeed] and stuff. Sigh exams. Can't wait for the holidays. Shall do some mad things after the exams haha. Oh well, 2 papers to go. Better be good.

It has been a bad, bad week.
Bad, bad things have happened (other than exams). Sigh.
My specs broke. Unfixable. So I'm wearing contacts at home. Haha. So tai-tai right. Maybe I'll dig my old specs out later. Too little sleep + 18 hours of contacts = bad. Sigh I shall not whine about the other bad things that have happened. Bleh.

A letter came in the mail today, a day late. Shrug.

Blah, shall whine about Something Else.

People...
It's very sad to hear young people [university students] say things like "... what is the 11th alphabet of the alphabet?" SIGH. The "alphabet" thing is quite common around here I guess, but it was the first time I heard Both being used in the same sentence. diao. Hm I have other (more shocking) examples of atrociousness [I Know I should be saying "atrocities" but who cares =p], but... another time perhaps. One in a day is more than enough.

Slightly less atrocious, but @#$% nonetheless, was that I sat on a bus today next to two guys who were talking about Xiaxue's blog. That's ok, but they were actually Quoting it. Hahaha. It was rather amusing. One of them would quote some statement from the blog, and they would air and discuss their views on it. Farnie ar. =p Hee hee.

Oh and on my way home today... Jamie Oliver's "Oliver's Twist" was showing on TV Mobile. I was glancing at the little screen every now and then out of boredom haha. Then something irritating happened. The guy sitting behind me said to his friend, "you see the guy on TV? He's always trying to act pro but he's not pro." I mean, Come On, how can you say Jamie Oliver was trying to be pro. Diao. It's a casual cooking making a mess have fun kinda show. If he were really trying to be pro he'd have been wearing some pro-looking clothes and Trying to say pro things and stuff right? Hence, the guy behind me is an idiot. [I don't care] Does he feel superior saying such a thing? Does it fuel his ego to say such a thing? And where got people use the same word (i.e. pro) Twice in the same sentence in that manner one. Diao. Seems like I can never understand why some people, in their attempt to seem _____ [superior, cool, smart, etc], choose to do things that showed off nothing but the opposite. Why do they jeopardise their own efforts? [does this prove that they're stupid?] Sigh. I think I was just bored and irritated and I decided to blah about this stupid person. Indignant.

Oh well.
If I'm sad about/for the world it's partly the fault of these people.
Bleakness!

Happy 17th Birthday Mellie! [if you're reading this =p]

inconsequential

i sent a message to a stranger recently.
i flung it out far across space [and perhaps time].
i have no idea whether my message has reached the addressee.
i have no idea if my message has been stopped, or otherwise intercepted by third parties.
i have no idea if my message has been understood, if the addressee has indeed read it.
i have no idea whether i'll ever receive a reply.
yet
i'm quite fine with every one of these possibilities.
you could say we have an unconditional relationship, me and this stranger.
there is nothing to expect from each other; we have no problems.
how nice.
and i shall forget that i once sent a message to a stranger.

[for more pretty bird photos visit here]

unrandom musings

the word "solo" seems to induce in me a great amount of stage fright. physiological signs are especially evident from about 16 measures before actual solo. on the other hand, exposed and scary and evil parts are quite ok by me. i have no idea what's wrong with me. tsk. mental blocks.

i like gigs. they're fun. =]
[but the chairs today were so hard! butt ache. haha.]

Bryan [my cousin's baby] turns 1. whee! he's learning to walk now! and he's getting cuter by the day =]

i think i like feeling melancholy. it's rather intoxicating.

why do i not feel jealous/upset when other girls talk to my boyfriend?
[recently i was rather disturbed by someone who'd glare at me/look upset/act impatient everytime i talk to her boyfriend. and he's the one who started talking to me. and about nothing in particular. tsk tsk.]

diarrhoea is not fun.

lalala~

Some entries ago i blabbered about the movie MOON CHILD. And now, I'm going to tell everyone that I love the soundtrack. Because of the main (and recurring) theme. It's one of the rare bits of music that can make my hair stand. And yes, that's a good sign. I think I'll cry if I hear it in a cathedral or some other similar echoey place. Oh well. *faints*

In other news, I have a functioning SIM now. [thanks to me uncle] But it's empty of contacts! arrrrh..

Off to mug.